August 26, 2009 @ 9:19 am | Filed under: The Solid Rock,Uniquely Me

“The optimist sees opportunity in every danger; the pessimist sees danger in every opportunity.” — Winston Churchill
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Be still and know that I am God. - Psalm 46:10

I knew that change was coming to my life.

Normally, I don’t do change. At least not with any kind of ladylike grace at all. It usually involves a bit of kicking and screaming, asking why, and – more often than not – results in lots of hot tears.

Why is it that some lessons are just so hard to learn?

My heart is a tricky place. Just when I think I have all its rooms cleaned up and ready to pass inspection, I trip and fall over something I thought I had already picked up and put away properly.

When I want too much, I become a very unhappy woman. And it’s never things that get me twisted, it’s matters of the heart, a longing for that one, single, solitary place inside of me that has yet to be satisfied…

It was during times alone with Him that I began to ask for simplicity.

And it was in the darkness of those hours before Him, when I could no longer hide and found myself stripping off everything that was trying to bind my mind, my emotions, my purpose, that His voice found me.

He began to uncover the makeshift bandages I had placed over bruised spots. His fingers caressed the scars, and He spoke whispers of comfort that moved a long-needed breeze through my soul.

For the past year I have been so acutely aware that I was being prepared for something. In almost everything I took a part in, it was shown – again and again and again - that I was to walk out into the deep and that I was to do just this one thing.

One thing at a time.

I have found that if you do that ONE THING and then the NEXT one, and then the NEXT one…before you know it life has evolved, situations have evolved and…I have evolved. And evolution equals change.

One day that still quiet voice penetrated to the depths of my heart; I listened, sensing an important message.

Simplicity, I can give you.

I instinctively knew I should stiffen at those words, but I no longer had the energy. Wasn’t I on my face, tears streaking my face, my throat raw from the time spent with Him – acknowledging that my ways needed to fade away so that HIS way could be made clear?

The struggle within me died in those moments of surrender. I didn’t know where He would lead. I didn’t know what He would have me do.

I only knew that I could no longer hide. Could no longer numb the pain. Could no longer live a life that was merely reactive.

I rose to my feet, not knowing anything more than I had said yes.

To what, I didn’t know.

Tags: living simply